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I think I really just needed to get all of that out there in some form or another.

In the past three days I've really just been taking a long hard look at my life. I've lost a lot in the past year. When I look back on it, I think it would have made sense for me to have taken the spring semester off and focus on getting myself together rather than consuming my time with school work. I think that's why I really hit me hard at the beginning of the week. I was finally done with school so now I had nothing to keep my mind from being reminded of the past and dwelling on it. So maybe it was a good thing, but at the same time, keeping all of that bottled in me for so long probably wasn't one of my best ideas.

Nothing is going to bring back my dad, I'll never get to do marching band again, I won't have my own space until I actually buy my own house, and I can't undo the mistakes I've made in the past. I just have to move past all of that. As hard as it may be, it's the reality of the situation. I won't move on from my dad, cause I will always miss him, but it's finally time I close my  high school chapter once and for all. Maybe in the future I'll get to do marching band again somewhere else. But besides that, I'm ready to start the rest of my life, and leave all of this behind. I don't need it dragging me down anymore. They were all great memories that I will hold with me forever. But that's where they need to stay. Any hopes of bringing him to life, or reliving my memories is fruitless. But keeping the memory alive is what I need to do.

I'm still going to be inactive here since I just don't need DA anymore.

But I just wanted to end on a somewhat more happier note, and a somewhat humorous one since it took me a full year to graduate.

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rainbowtail101 Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013
Haaaappppy Birthday!!!!! :iconspazhugplz:
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EdwardG101694 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Student Artist
Thank you! Oh my god, I'm so sorry for such a late reply to everything. I mainly left this site since it holds a lot of memories I really want to leave in the past, but in the process I completely forgot that I had it in the first place. 

I remembered it right now and thought I should check it just in case someone had wished me a happy birthday. 

That said, do you frequent any other websites? I'd like to talk still, I just really want to forget everything posted here.
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rainbowtail101 Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013
Ah, no problem, man. Hope you had a great one :aww:
Actually, I'm not on here very often anymore either, but I do have a tumblr: rainbowtheescapist.tumblr.com/
But I dunno if you wanna deal with my crap on there lol
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EdwardG101694 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Student Artist
I'm beyond addicted to tumblr. xD I get so consumed by it, that when I'm finally bored of it, I usually reclick the bookmark by mistake. XD

Followed you! :) I'm headjoint-hero.tumblr.com 
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FluteLoop3 Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Student Artist
Hey, I realised I never gave you a Llama badge! :O :la: You totally deserve one - so I gave you one! Sorry it took so long! x :music:
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EdwardG101694 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Student Artist
Thank you! Sorry for such a late reply, I've been busy.
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FluteLoop3 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Student Artist
Hehe, that's alright - I know what you mean! :P
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FluteLoop3 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2012  Student Artist
Hey! You aren't the only one who loves music theory! I have a music theory qualification which I'm very proud of (it's framed :D *chuffed*) and I loved doing it! The exam was scary though ... :P Good luck with it! x
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FluteLoop3 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Student Artist
Oh, and thank you for my Llama too! x
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EdwardG101694 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2012  Student Artist
Lol, I would totally frame something like that too. XD
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